I feel like I keep apologizing for the lack of posts. So I'm gunna stop saying sorry because it's just starting to sound fake. LOL. The fact of the matter is, I have a corporate job and it's not an easy one and lately it's taking up most of my time. The tax field is volatile in that you always have to keep up to date to legislative changes and there will never really be a time where there isn't any work that needs to be done. It's more like, can I push this off knowing I'm only screwing myself over next week? Add to that the pressure of wanting to transition to the next step of my career. If I want some sort of level up, then I have to prove I deserve it. So the work and the responsibilities pile on. Perceptions start to matter more and yes, I gotta really start to care about putting on my eyeliner, a tad bit of makeup in the morning, and actually brush my hair once in a while before I fly out the door. Believe it or not, the polished chick you see on this blog, is more often NOT what my co-workers see. Just think Clark Kent versus Superman. Except that Clark Kent is a short Asian girl who looks like she just rolled out of bed, with her hair whipped up into some sort of ponytail/bun combination with pieces sticking out every which way, wearing just different variations of a sweater and slacks combo with zero makeup and barely looking awake. So what's got me caring about my career all of a sudden? Who the hell knows.
I swear you turn 30 and you start thinking about shit. Like I should be aiming for higher things. Though I don't have kids and don't plan to have any, so really my responsibilities are to not lose my house, feed my husband and my dog, there is a go-getter side of me that craves challenges. Maybe that's why I think I can handle being a career woman chasing her next promotion, fashionista wanna-be blogger, once in a blue moon youtube-r, wedding coordinator, photographer, super wife, party gal... the list kind of just trails off. And really I don't want to give any of it up. I like to say that I am just in this corporate life because it pays my bills and fills my closet, but if I'm really honest, I love the challenge and the grind. Not to mention I've got a Masters degree in Tax that I don't want to waste because one, it comes from a great school, and two, it was daaaaaaamn expensive (at least that's what my mom and dad always said). I also enjoy being surrounded by intelligent people who can mentor me and guide me career wise. My dad always told me, if YOU are the smartest person in the room, then you are in the wrong room. Some people like to feel like they know more than anyone else because let's be honest, that feels good. That room seems pretty nice when everyone thinks you are the best. But I always try to keep those words in mind and try to go into the room where maybe I am the dumb one. Because only then will I keep learning and growing. Smart people are sexy as hell y'all.
So even though I'm going through all these intense emo thoughts about where my life is going, I still want to keep this blog alive and strong and hopefully keep giving you guys your dose of DOS. Whether it's through my rants of pure nonsense or through photos and style advice, I will still be around. So thanks to everyone who still pops in once in a while and for those that actually READ this... you get ALL the virtual hugs and kisses! Once my life settles and the weather along with it, I'll come correct with the posts and be more consistent. =D I love you guys!
Coat - Twelfth Street by Cynthia Vincent | Turtleneck - H&M | Jeans - Page Denim | Shoes - YSL | Bag - Chloe Marcie Large | Sunnies - Oliver Peoples
xoxo,
DOS
